I have struggled every year of my life to find clothes that I can afford, that fit well, and will last.
It seems like every time I am able to find something that I need, another becomes un-available. Currently I am in need of new jeans, just plain blue and black ones. I wear the black ones for work. A local western wear store used to carry my size, but now they have nothing, saying the manufacturer doesn't make my size anymore. Recently I managed to find a place to buy basic t-shirts, and even more recently i managed to find a coat to replace the one that i had been using for the last ten years.
I know that if I lost some weight, my clothing searches would be more fruitful. If losing weight was easy I would drop to about 250-300lbs. Lately I have been doing the opposite and gaining weight. I feel that I have no goals, I feel that it would be better if i ended my existence. I am tired of being me.
